man oh man
chris is so wonderful
you have no idea seriously diary
series of events, that was sweeet
"teresa has a lot of other nice parts too"
hahahahaha its just wonderful
were gonna do something fri nt
its gonna be tons of fun, i know it is, hes amazing
i love you? kiss?
tues bio tutoring
wed library
time with chris
is time well spent
and its off to study for math test
its way too late
im a bad girl.
posted by Teresa at 11:11 PM
I am so mad at Dad right now.
I seriously want to scream.
I know i'm being a bitch and i know i've been gone all weekend and shit shit shit
i wanted to post this on the regular
but im afraid of letting everyone see how depressed i am
i want chris
i know i shouldnt depend on anyone as much as i depend on him but i do
i just care about him so much
and i need him so much
its bad, i know its bad
dont you think i know
i sit here and i wait to see chrisv958 and i just wait wait wait and i want him and i need him
im so stressed or something
god fucking dammit
i dont know if ib is for me
and i let myself wallow in this misery
dad says hes trying to relieve my stress
bullshit and we all know it
its not a question but a lesson learned in time
im so tired of it all
ive discovered there're advantages and disadvadvantages both to feeling like ive been with chris forever
ie, despite the fact that im totally comfortable with him which is beautiful
i also feel like i dont have to make as much of an effort, and neither does he
i dont know
this is sort of my first real and true relationship in some ways
its like dd in some ways
dd is never there for me leately
i guess you could say
i dont know
im glad ive got this, i ve been needing something like it
i think i may love chris
but i dont know
i just like everything about him
i hate things right now though
like chad
and this shit
life is shit
no one to talk to
who can actually make me feel better
lar is so depressing its too hard to be around her
i need someone happy and easygoing
which is why chris is so good for me
so im just wishing he would pick up a goddamn phone or get on the fucking computer
i love him
i hate him
its life
life
life
posted by Teresa at 8:51 PM
